2011年7月31日星期日

Me + You (5)

Actually having sore throat shouldn't have drink cold drinks.

Acting like being captured by others.

Chey.

Are you okay?





So glad to see her make up today.


极限


那一天
不自不觉地搭上捷运
来到了你的世界
细心观察着四周环境
对你的执迷得到解放
兴奋难奈之际深怕转身发现的踪影
提心吊胆之余嘴角不时往上扬起
一步步接触你世界的所有人事物
无聊猜测你的儿时回忆
最爱的餐厅 最喜欢的书局
无法抵挡的玩具店..
甚至开始焦急地加快脚步
眼眶神经线底下的泪水
强忍着自己不能在此时此刻丢脸地落下
闭上眼睛向前跑着
漆黑的前景不曾让我触目惊心
因我清楚前面道路将会是你照亮着我..
上了巴士 手指数着经过的巴士站
眼神集中于窗外漆黑的风景
把脸庞靠近窗口 距离1.5公分
感受着你的空气 你的温度
错过车站 一步步走着回头路
大脑此时告诉自己放弃 不要再下贱
心脏此刻提醒自己坚持 相信自己的自觉
我双手掩盖双耳 不顾一切地继续向前加快步伐..
双脚瞬间无力量地无法再移动
轻轻地仰天喘着几口气
好让心脏跳动频率能够慢慢减速
我视线迷糊地看着漆黑前方
是你拿着手电筒出现眼前
我就知道 漆黑尽头就是闪烁着的你。





2011年7月30日星期六

Me + You (4)


Hilthan FTW!
(Terence) He sings freaking nice
Might be due to his age HAHAHAH

(Ji Hao)

(Jiali)
(Shi chin)

(Hilary)
Sweetest duet! (Terence & Jiali)

Fine they are just friends
Yet they both still look sweet together!




2011年7月29日星期五

So close yet so far.

I hate the situation
that i care everything of you
yet i don't know if you do also
I thought forcing myself to have similar interests with you
is one way of bringing us nearer and closer
yet i realize it will only make me ain't like myself anymore
What could i do
to leave this ship going under?


2011年7月27日星期三

:)

无论
看电影
听歌
吃饭
聊天
走路
休息
买饮料
闭上眼睛
睡着
大笑
大哭
大喊
都希望你无时无刻都能挂着微笑
你的笑声笑脸
是我今生最美丽的回忆。



2011年7月26日星期二

Roll eyes

Everyone should have known that
Roll eyes is sort of my significant uhm reply?
Hahaha idk
i just like it
It literally makes you look bitchy and annoying
but you would have lots of fun CONFIRM
Sometimes you see someone you don't like
let's say your classmate
Hmm seriously i can think of one already
Yeah i don't feel like typing her name out though
Let's just spell her name as B-I-T-C-H
Totally bitch and si hiao po
Kay back to the topic.
Yaa when you rolling right
it's good for you to say something
um like Cheyyy who cares?
You should know my cheyy doesn't really sound like CHEEEEYYYYYY
it sounds more like [car] in chinese
But sometimes i roll eyes and say the words
I question myself
You do care right? You moron.




Me + You (3)





Zilian before watching the so fucking funny hilarious show- Bridesmaids!

------------------------------------------------------------------------
Hey
You have no idea how special you are, literally
You are my eye candy
I made up my mind.
At this moment,
I don't care anything
Am gonna meet you tmr
Do i feel scared? Hell yeah
But i'm sagittarius.


2011年7月25日星期一

一个人学习一个人



[It is not easy to meet each other in such a big world]
somehow makes sense for me.
That's why i won't easily let anyone i love fade away from me
'Cause i truly understand
there's always reasons for them
to be in my life.
I love you all
I love you.



2011年7月23日星期六

Middle Finger.


For the one
who fucking don't know how to appreciate me
Go die for ten thousands times
And rot in the hell forever
Kay?



Sincerely,
Me


Creep

When you were here before
Couldn't look you in the eye
You're just like an angel
Your skin makes me cry
You float like a feather
In a beautiful world
I wish I was special
You're so fucking special

But I'm a creep
I'm a weirdo
What the hell am I doing here?
I don't belong here

I don't care if it hurts
I want to have control
I want a perfect body
I want a perfect soul
I want you to notice when I'm not around
You're so fucking special
I wish I was special

But I'm a creep
I'm a weirdo
What the hell I'm doing here?
I don't belong here

She's running out the door
She's running out
She runs runs runs

Whatever makes you happy
Whatever you want
You're so fucking special
I wish I was special

But I'm a creep
I'm a weirdo
What the hell am I doing here?
I don't belong here
I don't belong here





Hi and Bye.

I should be leaving earlier
after my class.
Yet for some reasons
which I did not know why
some part of me chose to stay and walked back home with friends.
I know one of them is our mutual friend
we both once talked about you
which I hate the most.
Walking down the stairs
I was making sure you were not around.
On the way out of school
I heard your name once again from our mutual friend
I freaked out but I pretended like nothing happened
aad just faked a smile like I always do.
Again really
I seriously I did not know why again
I heard something and just walked forward
My friends followed me behind
And Fuck I heard your name being shouted loudly
Yes chaocheebye! I saw you down there unexpectedly
I knew I should just turn my head away
Yet I chose not to
I mean I stoned honestly.
You looked at us and said hi
Of course I just faked a smile and stared at you
You had some talk with my friends
I pretended like am listening
However the bumping sounds of my heart
No one could hear except me myself
Your laugh and smile still mean something for me
Everything of you still seems so right to me
The hardest moment anyone could ever have in their lifetime could be
Trying to say bye for the very last time
But there are always chances for you two to say hi.


2011年7月22日星期五

Damn.


Telling myself
[Hey you are cool. Forget the past and move on.]
[Hey am so proud of you. You can actually live by yourself.]
time after time.
Sorrowfulness and flashbacks of our memories
are all the leftovers I have after the day.
Couldn’t help picturing those days never end
Seems like it was just yesterday
when we both say goodbyes to each other
and never turn our heads back.
Hating you is all I can do
also the last and only linking I can have with you
I never beg you not to leave
'Cause I understand that you never belong to me
although I have given my all to you.
You crept into my life uninvitedly
yet now you just faded away, leaving nothing behind
You desert me and now I have to be my own saviour.
At this moment
I, living half alive,
Force myself to say I’m alright
after my heart was being torn apart into pieces.
I'm tired of all these dramas
There's one thing you should know
I don't have to live this way
bearing all these pains.

Damn I miss you so badly.

2011年7月20日星期三

Me + You (2)


Zi lian straight after our group presentation!

He said he looks like ZHOU RUN FATT woh!





Tiredd siaa.Goodnight ppl!

2011年7月19日星期二

爱上, 爱。请问怎么走


如果有一天,你要离开我,我不会留你,我知道你有你的理由;如果有一天,你说还爱我,我会告诉你,其实我一直在等你;如果有一天,我们擦肩而过,我会停住脚步,凝视你远去的背影,告诉自己那个人我曾经爱过。或许人一生可以爱很多次,然而总有一个人可以让我们笑得最灿烂,哭得最透彻,想得最深切..
Maybe someday i will thank you
For being such an asshole
which makes me grow up
On my own.

Tweets (3)

Its tough when someone special starts to ignore you, but its even tougher when you have to pretend that you don't mind.
Don't feel special, I only keep your number in my phone so I know not to answer when you call
Never go back to an old love. Because it's like reading a book over and over again when you already know how it ends.
One reason when the girl turned away to another guy because she's tired for waiting your response
It's hard to forget someone who made a difference in your life

2011年7月18日星期一

Words


I used to think before i talk
Like i would rephrase everything
before i open my mouth.
Yet now i don't.
Before something comes into my mind
I just talk
Like sometimes i even get panicked by the words i said
Whatever i don't care any fuck now
Cause i met the most asshole person in my life
who don't fucking care for anything
WHY SHOULD I!
Fuck you asshole!

2011年7月17日星期日

ITS SO FUCKING ACCURATE!

Your view on yourself:

You are down-to-earth and people like you because you are so straightforward. You are an efficient problem solver because you will listen to both sides of an argument before making a decision that usually appeals to both parties.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:

You are not looking merely for a girl/boyfriend - you are looking for your life partner. Perhaps you should be more open-minded about who you spend time with. The person you are looking for might hide their charm under their exterior.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:

You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person.

The seriousness of your love:

You like to flirt and behave seductively. The opposite sex finds this very attractive, and that's why you'll always have admirers hanging off your arms. But how serious are you about choosing someone to be in a relationship with?

Your views on education

Education is very important in life. You want to study hard and learn as much as you can.

The right job for you:

You have plenty of dream jobs but have little chance of doing any of them if you don't focus on something in particular. You need to choose something and go for it to be happy and achieve success.

How do you view success:

You are confident that you will be successful in your chosen career and nothing will stop you from trying.

What are you most afraid of:

You are afraid of having no one to rely on in times of trouble. You don't ever want to be unable to take care of yourself. Independence is important to you.

Who is your true self:

You are full of energy and confidence. You are unpredictable, with moods changing as quickly as an ocean. You might occasionally be calm and still, but never for long.




Goodbye.

Its 120 in the morning

I have so many things to tell you

Sometimes I do feel regret

I mean for everything I did

Cause its like im doing something

Entertaining myself

And getting no feedback from you

Hell yes you might not even care

Like what you once told me

Cause you just dont mind

Dont care dont bother at all

for something i seriously do care about.

First day I saw you

I knew it was you

Yet you prove me wrong

And I think its really the right time

For me to let go

Forget and move on.

You are not even there

Whenever wherever I need or want you

Nevermind

Fed up of waiting during midnight

Fed up of heart beating up and down

every time I see you

Fed up of hand sweating

every time I see or hear your name

Damn you have no idea how I feel

how much i care for you

right now

And I really wish you do.

Guess i'll find someone like you.

Goodbye

Forever.

2011年7月16日星期六

Me + You (1)

Mermaid with ugly heart.


Sexy athletic body (Hillary Teng)

Hot chick (Hilary Pang)

Project mates in project room (Shi Chin & Hilary Pang)

They are crazy when they sing!

With my closest friend in Spore (Yvonne Lim)

Smile people smile!

50 years down the road i will be looking like this. SAD.

Zi lian before HP7.





END.

For me.


If you want me
Show me
If you need me
Tell me
If i'm worth it
Fight for me
'Cause those are the things
I wish you could do
Just for me.

2011年7月15日星期五

Happily never after.


It's funny
that i think i might change my mind
no matter how hard i try
to persuade myself not to.
It's time for me to let go
I tell myself.
Never hold on for the one
who never hear and see you
clearly and precisely.
I made up my mind.
Just,
it's time for me to move on.
Yet everything you do
and you say
gives me a second thought.
I love you
yet i hate you.

2011年7月13日星期三

Where.


As i expected all along
You never show up
What i wish from you
Is the courageous
We both lack of.

2011年7月12日星期二

Points of my view.


There is a song i fancy of these few weeks
Need You Now.
[Have i ever crossed your mind]
is the question everyone would ask
and dying to know the answer
yet some part of you will warn yourself
Are You Fucking Serious You Wanna Know The Answer From Him?
There is numerous Hi-Bye friends in your life
Yet what you really asking for is just
a simple Hi or Bye from him.
Sad and pathetic right?
You just don't care every fuck
even sometimes what he does, says
or even his little facial expression
can make you so speechless
and emo for the whole day
You tell yourself you would never love again
Looking at his back or side view
you question yourself
NOOOO How the hell would you live without him?
and then you change your mind again.
You just can't imagine yourself losing him
however in fact you never have him
Do you?



Tweets (2)


On a scale from 9-10 you're a 9 and I'm the 1 you need.

Sometimes, you have to ignore someone cos the best way to get someone's attention is stop giving them yours.

2011年7月10日星期日

Tweets.


Don't worry if your single, God's looking at you right now saying, "I'm saving this girl/boy for someone special".

It's not about how many times you tell someone that you love them, its about how many times you prove that you do.

There’s always that one special person that no matter what they’ve done to you, you still, just can’t let them go.

When he/she crossed your mind, you just can't help laughing.

2011年7月9日星期六

Inner and outer.


能认识你真好
不再为平凡的东西感兴趣
不再为庸俗的人类感期待
不再为小事大惊小怪
因你对我而言
是脱俗
是超越平凡的
完美人类
有你 我人生无悔。

No more lucky red.It's lucky me!


Saw you four times today
is the most incredible thing in my life
Saw you six times a week
is the most unbelievable thing in my whole life
Chat with you yesterday night
is the best night i ever had
Miracles do happen
People!

-I knew from the day we met,you'd be hard to forget!-
Twitter

2011年7月7日星期四

In time.


Chat with you yesterday night
One of the best nights i have ever had
Couldn't help laughing when i'm on the way to school this morning
You told me you won't do that
'cause you are shy
You answered my questions
with the answers i never expected
You told me every detail of your day
I asked questions which i knew the answers
yet i tried the best of me
just to stay with you.
Everything of you
seems so right to me.



2011年7月6日星期三

Stay

One of the hardest decisions you will ever have to make,
is whether to stay and try harder, or take your memories and walk away.
Your little move is able to change my mind
Holding on something ambiguous
is the least people will ever try
Yet i force myself to stay longer
to make sure i would never regret
when i finally choose to turn my head away
forever and never come back to you.

The one and only one.

The head just leaned on my shoulder
i wished was from you.

The we-both-also-like song just heard from the cafe
i wished could be singing with you.

The one just crossed my mind
i wished..
No
its always you.

2011年7月5日星期二

Bad feeling.

Looking in front
Looking behind
Left and Right
Its all i do everytime i walking
either alone or with friends
Just to make sure you aint near me
People with similar height and body size like yours
definitely freaks me out
Coming across to you is all i asked for
yet i just scared
Aiya dont knw sia.
Definitely this feeling not what i longing for.

1 universe,
9 planets,
204 countries,
809 islands,
7 seas
and 6,946,994,005 people
in this world
but what i need is you.

2011年7月4日星期一

Lucky red.

This fucking early morning
i saw you
and you saw me
I know you saw me
And of course you know i saw you as well
Yet we ended up giving each other an awkward face
and talked nothing
and just fucking walked away from each other's side
Sad sia.

2011年7月3日星期日

Always you.

If one day you want to cry, just call me. I can't promise I'll make you laugh, but I can cry with you.
If one day you want to run away, don't be afraid, just call me. I can't promise I'll make you stop, but I can run with you.
If one day you are bored, just call me. I can't promise I will entertain you, but I can tell you I am bored too.
But if one day you tell me you are in love with me, I promise I will tell you I am love with you, too.

2011年7月2日星期六

爱与不爱

恋爱中
爱情烦不烦?
爱情累不累?
失恋后
答案是否还一样啊?
就不说恋爱了 暗恋吧?
暗恋累人吧 烦人吧?
当局者迷完全完美无缺点恰好地fit into 暗恋这两个字
身边好友早已用尽方法告诉你 劝说你
这个男人不适合你
这个男人不是你喜欢的类型
这个男人是坏男人
这个男人不是...这个男人不对...
你回答来来去去还不是
[你们不懂他的好..]
[爱一个人就是得爱他全部..]
[我本来就喜欢坏坏的男生..]
你甚至觉得身边朋友眼红自己幸福
恨不得他们有几秒种能够闭上嘴巴
你的爱情 干他们屁事!
现在呢
最该闭上嘴巴的还不是自己
漆黑酒吧内喝着啤酒
哭天抢地 咒骂着[臭男人!][烂货!][坏人你去死!]
的疯婆子还不是你自己
[我忍你很久了 你又爱看A片 又爱抽烟 脾气又坏...!]
这时身边朋友默默不语 回想着那时眼前这个女人对爱情伟大的宣言
[爱一个人就是得爱他全部 缺点优点..]
但他们绝对不会骂你笨 说你蠢
更绝对不是因为你是他们的朋友而闭嘴
也不是因为给你面子 知道你伤心而不骂出口
因为这是人类的本性甚至宿命
谁知道骂出口后 几个月后的自己就是眼前被其他朋友毒骂的对象
偷东西被抓 说谎被抓包..
都能立即学乖 但爱情不能
无论你多聪明多机智
爱情这东西你永远都学不乖
告诉你 男人不要找帅的 帅哥没本心
你就是不听 偏偏找个超帅的
现在甘愿啦 超帅的超花心
失恋了哭了闹了 下次还不是一样找个帅的..
你永远就是那句话
我就不信全世界帅哥都是这样
有时真的不知道那个失恋后手握啤酒 大哭大闹的疯婆子
到底何时才能觉悟
而这个戏码到底还得重复多少次数啊?
明知道自己喜欢吃黄梨
可是知道他讨厌黄梨 就强迫自己一口也不能动
只为了那一句[天哪 你也不喜欢吃黄梨啊?]..
明明发现他的牙齿有点暗黄
偏偏半夜里睡不着觉看着镜子张开嘴巴
告诉自己 看 每个人的牙齿都是这颜色
那些洁白牙齿都是牙膏广告的烂梗..
朋友看了你男友 告诉你这个男生样子有点奇怪 有点..不对
你摇头潇洒地告诉他们
就说你们不识货 没品味*摇头*
没关系 少点竞争者对我来说也是件好事..
好吧 现在Fast Forward到失恋后手握啤酒 妆花了泪满脸满口醉言啃着黄梨的疯婆子
[你这个贱男人 老娘为了你忍了多少黄梨啊!你这个烂货!]
[你这个天杀的! 牙齿黄成这样还敢追老娘 还敢飞老娘 你这个不要脸的死贱人!]
[人丑真的没药医!我都不嫌你样衰了 你竟敢还敢和老娘分手!]
热恋 暗恋两个样
爱他变恨他
疼他变杀他
然而 无法否认
的确会有那么一两个是让你觉得
希望能够找到和你一样好的人
你不属于我 我不恨你 但我会遇到更好的人
但 扪心自问
不咒骂那些贱人的祖宗十八代
你不会彻夜难睡吗?

Goodluck



[Goodluck tomorrow]
is something i would like to tell you
yet i cant.

2011年7月1日星期五

Fated to be.

你和他莫名地偶遇
你自叹彼此有缘到不行
是天造地切 是缘定此生
鼓起勇气问问自己
和他在便利店偶遇 真的是天意吗?
不是你早预料他会出现在那
每个星期五 0900
那这个还算缘分吗?
和他在斑马线上偶遇
不是你知道那是他回家必经之路吗?
这又是所谓的缘分吗?
和他喜欢同样的饮料
不是因为你偶然发现他爱喝这个饮料
而强迫自己也爱吗?
你和他之间
真的是所谓有缘到极点吗
还是你给你自己所有偶遇的安排的借口
好让自己更爱眼前这个人物
你反复催眠自己
他是你的 就连上天也允许你们的相遇
你会是我的 你会是我的 你....
睡觉前满脑子的他 你一点也不嫌烦
甚至有点懊恼为啥直到现在他还未出现在你的梦境中
你也是否不断地重复地无间断地唸着他的名字
大卫 杰西卡 小伦 佳欣..
接着是一连串的无奈哀叹。
缘分啊 可以说是爱情中的catalyst吧
加强对着那人物的爱情细胞
让他的一切所有占据你全身感官。
告诉自己吧
你和他之间的偶遇就算是人为
是假装不经意
是背后安排的计划
可是上天不让他进入你的计划 你的安排
那次偶遇相对地不能以安排密谋式地进行
上天让你的人为偶遇顺利进行
那你也就别辜负自己
证明给自己和他看
你和他之间
存在着天时地利人和吧
爱情顺利 各位!