Damn.

Telling myself

[Hey you are cool. Forget the past and move on.]
[Hey am so proud of you. You can actually live by yourself.]
time after time.
Sorrowfulness and flashbacks of our memories
are all the leftovers I have after the day.
Couldn’t help picturing those days never end
Seems like it was just yesterday
when we both say goodbyes to each other
and never turn our heads back.
Hating you is all I can do
also the last and only linking I can have with you
I never beg you not to leave
'Cause I understand that you never belong to me
although I have given my all to you.
You crept into my life uninvitedly
yet now you just faded away, leaving nothing behind
You desert me and now I have to be my own saviour.
At this moment
I, living half alive,
Force myself to say I’m alright
after my heart was being torn apart into pieces.
I'm tired of all these dramas
There's one thing you should know
I don't have to live this way
bearing all these pains.

Damn I miss you so badly.